Stress & Dark Thoughts

I am under constant stress of being unable to resolve the most important issues in my life. I still have little to no control over my largest expenses, and Cara is actively trying to take away custody of the children. I cannot seem to put these things aside and just enjoy life. I am still smarting from her taking away my vacation with the children to US by lying in court. She will feign fear to justify any horrible action that she takes against me. I just want to split things up, but she wants to take everything and punish me as much as possible in the process. Dark thoughts.