What Do You See?

What do you see, when you look at me? Do you see a happy, successful father of four married to a beautiful, brilliant woman with whom he travels the world? Or do you see a mildly autistic overweight middle-aged man whose list of goals for his life only gets longer and less attainable as his life gets shorter? Obviously this is a rhetorical question because I've never bothered to implement comments for this blog. But, really, what do you see? And how do you see yourself versus the image you project to the world on social media? I've been trying to stay connected to people, but Facebook & Instagram don't make me feel very good about myself. And Twitter makes me despair for the world. I'd weaned myself down to just Instagram on my phone, because how could I not share the beautiful pictures of the world I see evry day? But then I'd look at all the pictures other people were posting. Everyone is visiting so many beautiful places and doing beautiful things. I feel the FOMO strong and it makes me sad. So this week I dumped that one too. I took a hike on the beautiful Smørâle;sfjellet this morning and didn't send out a pic to any social media. I did text a few people though.

It was just a few months back when I wrote a similar blog about Emotional Media when I expressed a similar sentiment. It sounds like I'm addict with a real problem, no?